Finally! Traits of an Empath #30!

30. Can appear moody, shy, aloof, disconnected: Depending on how an empath is feeling will depend on what face they show to the world. They can be prone to mood swings and if they’ve taken on too much negative will appear quiet and unsociable, even miserable. An empath detests having to pretend to be happy when they’re sad, this only adds to their load (makes working in the service industry, when it’s service with a smile, very challenging) and can make them feel like scuttling under a stone.

Such a small paragraph with so much accurate information.

I feel everything intensely.  I react intensely.  My feelings for the day, will radiate from me.  My moods swing like a 5 year old on a swing set.

I mostly feel like I do not fit.  I do not belong.  I do not mesh.  I often feel complicated or misunderstood. 

When I feel these things, I feel them to. My. Core.

I cannot ignore these.  I cannot pretend they do not exist.  I cannot paint on a smile.  I cannot fake that I like someone.  I cannot pretend.  Forcing me to pretend will make me angry.  Forcing me to get along will make me resentful.  Catering to me will make me uncomfortable.  Just get me out as soon as possible.

I am quite shy with new people or new places and this shyness does come off as moody, aloof, and disconnected all at once.  It's very difficult to figure me out, and most times, I'm not sure myself where I am on the spectrum!

Too much negative pushes me over the edge and fast!  I feel like I'm in a swirling vortex and I can't claw my way out.  I can feel the life, the goodness, the positivity being sucked from me.  I don't like it at all.

I think #30 fits me the best.  If this has helped you to understand me, it was worth it.