Traits of an Empath #24

24. Prone to carry weight without necessarily overeating: The excess weight is a form of protection to stop the negative incoming energies having as much impact.
Ugh!  Weight.  I've never really discussed weight on here...in all this time.

In the past few months, I've really been making an effort to watch what I eat.  We gave up soda/pop about a year or so ago. I am in a panic over aspartame and won't touch anything containing it.  I'm just trying to watch what I put in, make better choices, portion control but, what I'm noticing is - it doesn't matter. I'm still mostly the same.

I've noticed that my coffee is a little too sweet, and have cut back on the amount of creamer.  I can only eat 2 slices of pizza.  I rarely eat french fries - the give me terrible burps.  I love veggies.  We only use frozen and I steam them with garlic salt - no butter.  We eat a lot of fresh through the summer.  I can't stay away from the farm stands!  I am not much of a potato chip eater and I'll have a candy bar - maybe once a month!  You see a large person and you think they must do nothing but stuff their faces with food 24/7.  It's not true.  I don't eat that much.  Though some delicious saucy pasta is another story!

I've been tracking what I eat using a food tracking app on my phone and I always, always, always have calories to spare at the end of the day and we're not talking just one or two - more like 500+.

I do lack exercise.  I have a desk job.  We do try to walk the dog at least every night.  She's hard for me to walk, she pulls pretty hard and it's tough on my knees.  Many nights, I come home from work mentally exhausted, I pick Jacob up by 6, go home, eat dinner, do homework and then try to have him in bed by 8:30 PM on school nights - it's tough to get that walk in some nights.

Weight has been a challenge for me ALL of my life.  I remember being in 1st grade and my mom would buy me those shiny polyester grandma pants (seafoam green) and a matching shirt with the Empire waist because it was "slimming".   No one ever limited food for me.  I could have cookies, crap.  I used to eat frozen french fries for breakfast!  Isn't that sad?

I realize that I will never be thin.  And that's OK.  I wouldn't mind losing a few pounds and with my adjustments, I have lost some inches, my jeans are looser.  I just don't want to get any bigger.  If I can just lose or maintain and help my child to do the same!