Pain

When I first moved to this area, I had a very good friend that I worked with, lived with, rode with, spent every spare moment of time with.  One afternoon in November, she and I were on our way into work - she was driving, I was riding and there was an accident at one of the intersections.  We had stopped and were waiting for traffic to clear and BOOM!  The car behind us wasn't paying attention (turns out it was another girl we worked with) and she hit us from behind forcing us to hit the car in front of us.  I wrenched my shoulder from the seat belt. Thank God it wasn't more serious.

Fast forward one year.  Almost to the day.  Same intersection (Northbound rather than South this time), same friend, I was driving, she was riding.  We'd left the bar after work headed home.  Accident at the intersection, I had stopped.  Full size pickup coming behind us, it's raining, he's not stopping.  He slammed his brakes, spun, and BOOM, the back of his truck hit the back of my truck.  He kept going and rolled over into the ditch.  I hit my head on the back window and wrenched my shoulder...same one as last year.

And here were are about 10 years later.  I transferred jobs because of a pinched nerve in that shoulder.  The repetitive motions of assembly line work were doing more harm than good. 

I've learned that when I'm stressed or angry, the first thing I do is pull up my shoulders.  I see a chiropractor regularly to help with the pain, I've tried massage but mostly, I just deal with it.

I told you in my last post about the Reiki stuff that I was going to try.  I did it!  It sounds hokey, I know it does but, when you're hurt and you've hurt for a long time - you don't care about hokey.  You care about relief.  I went into the building totally not knowing anything that was going to happen.  I didn't read anything about it.  I didn't ask any questions.  I just went.  I walked behind the curtain, took off my shoes and my coat, untucked my shirt, hopped up on the massage table and the girls did the work.  One at my head, the other at my feet with soft music playing, candles and incense burning, they simply placed their hands on different parts of my body (nothing offensive or intimate) for about 15 minutes.  At one point, she was at my sore shoulder and I kid you not...I felt a tingle and relief (not totally but some).  It's all in the energy.  Taking the energy, directing the energy, and when they were done, I felt so relaxed and so refreshed.  I went home, took it easy and I had the best sleep that I have had in months!

I felt great when I left my session.  I felt great last night.  I have to tell you that I wasn't expecting to feel half this good when I woke up.  I feel re-energized.  Happy.  The grass seems greener and the sky is bluer.  I'm laughing.  It's been a good day - I'm eager to go and do more.  Yes, I still have the pain.  I don't know that I ever won't have it.  It just doesn't seem as important.  My energy is somewhere else.  I have energy from someone else, it's building - and it's good.