I kept telling myself "...if I can just get through St. Patrick's Day". I don't know what significance it holds - none really. There isn't anything special about that date. And now I find myself saying "if I can just get through Easter..." again, I'm not sure what Easter has to do with anything. I guess my little brain is just full.
* I'm scared to death of the mountain of hospital/Dr. bills that I'm building.
* I'm scared of tuition for Jacob's preschool.
* I'm thinking about the fence in the backyard that needs to be replaced and we don't have the money.
* I'm thinking about everything that needs to be put away at my house and the lack of storage.
* I'm thinking about the shit I have listed on eBay that isn't selling and the woman who bought an item but it's been three days and she didn't pay and the pile of very nice stuff that I have yet to list. I'm not reaching my goal of $20/week this week.
* I'm worried about having some of my guts removed. I have all of my original parts! I have never broken a bone in my body! I've never had a surgery. The regular dentist pulled my wisdom teeth!
* I really want to quit my job and do artsy stuff - but I can't because we can't afford it and I don't want to give up any of the nice things that I already have or the payment that goes with them. But I have a very nice camera that I don't know 3/4 of what it does and I want to learn but I already don't see my kid for 9 hours everyday.
* Jacob is going to need braces. Maybe not now but some day.
* Are we going to traumatize him as the worst parents EVER?
* The fruit in my fridge is going to rot and I spent $60 on all that fruit and I can't eat any more fruit because fruit makes me poop - A lot!
* I can't seem to get to sleep before midnight and all I'm doing is watching TV.
* I never post on Facebook anymore because I don't want to look like that lady who only updates when her family takes an expensive trip but, mostly because I don't have anything interesting to say in comparison to everyone else.
* I really just feel like being a snarky-snark-snarker and saying everything mean that I want to say in hopes that if I get all of my snarkyness out so I'll feel better. (I love that word - snarky. I heard it on The Real Housewives of New York City and I've been looking for somewhere to use it in a sentance.)
* I worry that Jacob won't be a popular kid in school. Then I worry that I won't be able to afford for him to be the popular kid in school because I'll still be paying hospital bills.
* I worry that Jacob will get beat up at school/in school/on the way home from school.
* I worry that kids won't like him.
* I worry that the moms won't like me!
* I'm addicted to buying cheap books. I just can't stop!
...and you think you've got problems!?!
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