Meet Samantha!

It's time I come clean.

I'm tired of keeping it quiet.  I'm tired of it being a secret. I'm tired of holding it in.  I'm tired of feeling weird, odd, different, shunned, and about 900 other things.

A few years ago, I started getting terrible headaches.  I have a really high pain threshold and these were BAD.  I have had to pull over while driving in fear of blacking out.  Jacob and I were stranded at the airport one afternoon because I couldn't see to drive us home.  I was about to call our local police for help.  It was THAT bad.  I'm not one for Doctors.  I don't believe they know everything.  Sadly, it is hard to find a good one to care for you and not your bank account.  I don't care what oath they take!

I began searching some alternate healing methods for my headaches.  I seem to recall telling you about Reiki before so, I am not going into detail again but, I did give you a link if you need a refresher.  In some of my sessions, I began to feel some relief from the pressure in my head.  At one point, the practitioner had asked me if I ever thought I could be psychic.  I said, "You know what? It's possible."

I have always had an inner voice, a LARGE conscience, a different drive than others.  I have always been able to sort people out, see to their core.  But, I never paid much (any) attention to it.  Over the last 2 or 3 years, I have been taking any class I can on psychic ability, reading most every book recommended to me about it and praying more than you can ever imagine about what to do with this gift.  What it is.  How it got here.  Echo Bodine, James VanPraagh, are amazing!  I have personally worked with Echo and met (only met - not like sat and had a chat over coffee) James just this fall.  Echo helped me so much.  To see that I wasn't a freak. To know that this is Godly and not Satanic!  I highly recommend her books!  She is a great teacher!

First of all before you even think it, my faith in God is HUGE.  He is bigger and more encompassing than ever. I have grown spiritually in ways that I could never explain to you. I pray harder.  I pray longer.  I pray more often than I ever have in all of my life.  Sometimes, I speak to God as if he were my own dad sitting next to me.  I am back in church,a Lutheran church.  I'm not happy with this church.  This service is actually too contemporary.  I prefer a more traditional service. I believe there is more to church, to faith, than what it teaches but, I do like the people.  I'm happier than I've been in a very long time.I have a deeper understanding of Heaven and Earth. I have a deeper understanding of my place in it. It is amazing.

I can't say this enough.  My faith is STRONG.  I am still just as Lutheran - more so than ever!

The only difference is, I meditate more often.  I pray more often.  And well, my dead brother-in-law stops in for a  visit every now and again as does my dear old dad - he always stinks up my house with the smell of gun oil.  If you have ever smelled gun oil, you know there is no other smell like it.  There is no substitute for it or anything to explain it away!  My right arm will begin to shake when a spirit stops by.  It doesn't happen every day but, it does happen.  I get very strong feelings about people, about places, about things or objects.  I do not see spirits though sometimes, they do speak to me.  God is on my side.  He always protects me.

That said, let's see, I'm about 10 for 12 on choosing the sex of unborn babies.  I may tell you of a health issue but, that doesn't mean it's going to happen and you should run to your doctor.  I'll tell you if you do need to.  This often happens to me when writing emails or chatting of the computer.  I have one person that I often tell to drink more water (she doesn't listen and her kidneys are going to kick her ass!).  I don't know when you're going to die, when I'm going to die, or when her kidneys are going to kick her ass.  I may tell you I will be somewhere and as I'm getting ready, I'll get a clear message telling me to stay home.  I may cancel a trip because it's not the right time.  Not in fear of something happening but, it's just not the time or the place for me to be.  And it gets frustrating.  And it makes me nuts.  Once, I had to - needed to go shoe shopping for Jacob and they kept telling me no, no, no, no.  I finally gave in and I didn't go.  But, sheesh!  Talk about annoying!

I don't believe in coincidences.  I believe that is God sending us our lessons, our affirmations, our directions.  I believe we're here to learn, to teach not to simply just be.  And I'm not going to "convert" you to anything, or sell you anything or read you.  That's not how it works.  I can't read your mind...though there are some I might want to...hmmm?

I've come to a point in life where this girft is so amazing to me.  To be happening to me. It's different and it's a part of me.  I can't turn it off.  I can't make it go away.  I tried.  I've tried many times. I can say I haven't had headaches like those first ones since I've opened up spiritually.  I hope they don't come back!  Oh, they were awful!

I'm not any different than you.  You have the same ability as I.  You can believe in God.  You can pray.  You have an inner voice that leads you as well.  You can listen to it.  Or not.  You can continue to be my friend, or not.  The choice is yours.

Sending you Light and Love!