The Wind Against Your Face

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” ― C. JoyBell C.

I have a hundred quotes or sayings about pain, about hurt, about healing.  I have experienced so much hurt and disappointment in my life and I'm drawn to the inspiration to pull myself back up and give it another go.  Life is kind of like that - a series of knocking downs and getting ups - over and over and over.  Some of us have a tougher go.  Some, a clear paved path.  It's our lot.  It's what we chose to learn here before we came.  It's God's path for us to learn these lessons.

When I talked with Madame Lemmetakeyourmoney, and I have to take her as a learning experience - I did learn from her, it was supposed to happen - but, I learned about my pain.  When she had me list out those 7 negatives in my life, those were also 7 huge life changers for me.  Had she not brought my attention to them, I'd still see them as these painful things that happened to me.  Sure, they are painful but, I got through them, past them.  I've learned from them and I'm trying to improve myself as a result of them.  I need to overcome them.

My 7 negatives were all events in my life.  Not people.  Not what anyone has "done" to me, not how anyone has treated me.  Simply events.  I thought that interesting, people.  People walk in and out of our lives ALL the time.  Think about the people you pass on a daily basis.  You don't know them, they don't know you. You can't control what people see, or what they think.  You often can't change their perception.  Some people make up their minds about another person and hell nor high water will change it. I can't make you think well of me.  I can only think the best about you.  It's my choice to do so and to continue to move forward.  I choose to build the great people relationships that I do have and to let go of the ones that are not meant to be.  And that's OK.

I can't change these 7 events in my life to improve my future.  I can't undo my parents divorce, I can't bring my dad or my sister back from death, I can't fix broken engagements or unbreak some one's heart.  I can't bring life to my babies that I lost. But, I can learn.  I can have empathy.  I can understand.  I can be kind.  I can realize the pain others do have only from drawing on my own.

Madame Lemmetakeyourmoney and her $375.00 to heal my energy...sure...okay....whatever (and no, I didn't pay here that much).  I think of it this way, had I not met her, I wouldn't have understood this pain I have, that I was hanging onto and what it was doing to me.  I wouldn't have understood about people - people who make assumptions/judgements about other people rather than simply seeing the good in them.  I wouldn't have been able to shut the door to the negative things I don't have room for anymore to open the door to a happier, positive, better life for me and my family.

I give you this.  Think about the 7 negatives in your life.  Not only as a bad or a negative experience but, think of them as what they taught you, where they led you, or what they brought to you.  Are they still negative?  I'd love to hear your answer.