I've been reflecting quite a bit in the past few months. Thinking about my parents, my family, my friends, my challenges, my accomplishments, and of course, my failures.
As I'm looking back, over the roads I've traveled and I see all of these bumps, and I see hills, valleys, dead ends, turn arounds, cut offs, short cuts, left turns, right turns, and I see where I am now.
I remember going down all of those streets, all of the intersections that led me to where I am today and I begin to wonder what it was that drove me to make the choices that I made. Each turn. Each road. And sometimes, what made me stop or turn back?
Yet I realize, had I missed any single hill, not turned around at the right time, turned right instead of left, I would have missed what I have right here in front of me.
I would have jumped on the freeway and avoided the bumpy dirt road to Jacob. I wouldn't have kept driving on the wrong street and gone right on by the man who has my heart. I would have turned right to avoid the discomfort of taking a left and missed the amazing women I met through this blog. I would have continued down a dead end and missed reconciliation in meeting an old friend for lunch. So many instances in my life where I got out (or in) just in time. How does that happen? How can you explain it away?
I do believe your life is mapped out before you. I believe the route is planned out before the stork leaves the nest. I believe God has it all taken care of for you before He's even done with your creation. I believe that every step I've taken and every new step ahead of me is all a part of His plan. Each failure or mistake is behind every accomplishment.
Every day I am thankful for God's plan. Thankful for the people He's brought me, the people He's moved me on from, and the people He's taken to be with him. Thankful for where he's taken me and the directions he's given.
Isn't it great when we can get to a place in our lives when we can look back and see God's plan for our lives in action? It's not always easy to accept/understand when we're "in the thick" of those dark, winding passages, but I'm happy to hear you're feeling at peace with where you are right now.
ReplyDeleteI reflect like this all the time. And I look at our struggles now and think, someday, this will all make sense, someday I'll be thankful things happened in the way, at the time, that they did. It brings me peace when otherwise I'd be stressed. Love this post.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it funny how when you're in it it seems so hard or strange or difficult and you wonder why? But given more time to reflect and digest it starts to make sense. And no matter how many times I get that ah ha moment, I still question over and over. I'm grateful for the moments of peace as it seems you are too. There are roads I wish I could have travelled but I wouldn't want to change the journey I've been on. Maybe just have been allowed a more scenic view.
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