I'm a week into my new responsibilities and I was hoping everything would be clearer, I'd have some understanding, some direction...but it's not and I don't. I had told my sister that I really want to just write...but I can't. Every time I try to put down a thought, it's like throwing bread into water. It turns into unrecognizable mush.
I've been reading emails and blogs without responses or comments because I can't put the words together to say anything that makes any sort of sense. I feel it's better to be quiet than to say a bunch of jibberish without true thought or feeling behind it.
I'm spending all day today in a conference room with my boss trying to understand his new expectations of me and trying to learn a new system. I also had to show him how our component tracking system works with our purchasing system. Systems, systems, systems! Honestly though, if it weren't for systems right now, I'd be wandering aimlessly.
As a family, we're doing okay - Jacob was sick Friday (2:00 AM) and I did 5 extra loads of laundry due to red Kool-Aid barf. Jeremy closed almost every night last week and Thank you GOD - nothing fell apart at home for once - our basement didn't even flood when all our snow melted on Saturday at 52 degrees!
I just wanted to touch base and let you know we're still here, not making sense, but alive and well. That's all that matters!
All I can say is I hear you sister! I've felt that way for so long now, I don't know what I'll do when it all becomes clear! Keep your head up and trudge on. I'll be praying for you!
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