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Friday, January 16, 2009

On the horizon

I don't like to make resolutions. To me, it's like making promises I know I'm going to break. I did tell myself that I wanted to make more changes in myself for 2009. I want to make better relationships with my family - excluding Edna (and that's a different post). I want to work on maintaining/improving relationships with friends. I want to do these things wholeheartedly with no reservations.

In the past few months, I've made a connection with 3 of my closest friends from high school, 2 of my sisters, an Aunt, a good friend I'd made through a past (as opposed to current-duh!) boyfriend, my friend I've had the longest, a co-worker who took a leap of faith, and even an old crush! I've also made 2 new friends. I made 2 new friends! Wow! Look at me coming out of my shell!

I'm learning things about myself that I didn't know I had. I'm learning to enjoy people for who they are instead of looking for who I want them to be. I've found generosity and compassion in myself. I, for once, don't care about what I'm getting back - I'm just enjoying what I'm putting in.

I like what this new outlook has given to me. Sure - I still have some work to do but I can see what is on the horizon - and the view is fantastic.

3 comments:

  1. I made a new year's resolution last year and yeah, all it really did is make me feel guilty for not fulfilling it. I'm not putting anything in writing this year but one of the things I really want to do is be better at blogging. I got into the bad habit of using Google Reader, which I love, but it takes me away from actually going to each blog and looking aroung, reading comments, fully interacting. I really miss that. So that's my resolution, kinda.

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  2. As you know, I also didn't make any resolutions. But I suppose I still have the goals of being better at: living one day at a time, being thankful for what I do have, concentrating on my relationships with the friends and family who are in my "front row" (this includes not feeling guilty about spending less time on those who aren't in my front row), and surrendering to whatever the plan is for my life.

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  3. Last year my resolutions were more about doing more for others and less for me. And you know, looking back, I think I did the best I could. This year it's more about trying to stay organized and not getting so upset with myself when I fall behind. I really think goals should be attainable, but its so hard to make them.

    I'm glad that you can find the good in your life like having newer, stronger friendships and renewing old ones. That is always so important!

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