2. Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls, supermarkets or stadiums where there are lots of people around can fill the empath with turbulently vex emotions that are coming from others.
True. True. So very 100% true.
I have been to one concert in my life. I will not go to another. I despise the mall. If I have to go, I park nearest the store I need, I go in, go to that store and I get right back out. The grocery store has to be quick and I'm a little picky about where I shop. I always have a list. I prefer the smaller, hometowny stores over the big box.
I don't like busy restaurants, busy roads, or big cities. I don't care for festivals or big celebrations - ugh the fair! If we go, we go really early and get it over with or when we go to the fair, we generally go on senior citizens day. It tends to be a bit more laid back. Those seniors don't run around, dragging 10 screaming kids behind them and the best thing about seniors - they aren't negative, they just don't give a shit. I can handle that!
All of these things, these places - all the people are completely overwhelming for me. I get really worked up from all of the energy flying around. I get anxious with all of the people who let their kids run wild and free. I get angry with the rudeness and the sense of entitlement in people. I seem to really notice or pick up on it in these situations. Granted with so many people in one place, it is magnified, doubled, tripled or more.
To me, to my mind, my emotions, it's like having a hundred sad people crying and trying to tell me their story all at very same time. I can't make them stop, or wait their turn, and they won't leave me alone. I can't fix what is making them sad and I can't distinguish any one single voice from the 99 others. An Empath is always drawn to sadness. Someone sad or negative can reel us in faster than someone who is positive and in public there are so many more Negative Nancys.
I can't live as a hermit - though I would love to - so I do brave the public and I do subject myself to a few large events per year. I'm learning to block that negativity from myself in those situations but, even blocking, I don't last but a few hours and I am totally BEAT at the end. I also generally come home with a splitting headache from fighting to keep the energy off.
This doesn't upset me. I don't miss these things. As we get further into these traits, you'll begin to understand why.
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