Do you ever wonder?

I'm a people watcher/observer. I love to go in a mall and sit on a bench and watch the people that walk by. I wonder about them, who they are, what their home is like, etc.

I wonder a lot about people in general. I wonder what makes people think the way they do, or act the way they do. I wonder what things are learned, who they learned them from, and if they were learned in defense or protection and what things come from birth. Of course, some you just wonder if they suffer from a severe mental illness (such as myself - kidding- I think) because the things they do really don't make any sort of sense.

I wonder sometimes about relationships with people. I wonder what attracts us to some and what deters us from others. I wonder why we can tell some people everything and completely leave out others. I wonder how we can become close and again why we distance ourselves.

I wonder a lot of times how people get so messed up. Then I wonder if they're the normal ones and I'm messed up! How does their thinking or methodology get so skewed? Or is it mine? I wonder how they come to expect so little and how I came to expect so much. I wonder how people can live their lives waiting for someone to save the day and how I live mine knowing that I won't be rescued - nor do I want to be. I don't understand how to depend on others when I learned to only depend on myself.

I wonder where we get the standards that we have. Such as the way we choose to keep our homes, our vehicles. The ways in which we cook or we clean. I know, as a girl (I don't like to call myself a woman), that I do things like my mom did - actually, I do things more like Cindy or Karen do. I fold towels differently though - hmm, odd (I fold in threes from the short side so the ends are in- except kitchen towels which I fold in threes lengthwise). I'm told most girls do things like their mothers did. Mine wasn't home much.

Of course, I wonder the normal things too like - how come some brands of hot dogs are sold in 10 packs, when the buns are packaged in 8's or 12's?

I guess I wonder lots of things...