Friday before Furlough

Next week is my week off - without pay. My company's plan to save some jobs this year. I'm not angry or upset about it. I think I'd rather have a week off all at once than to have shortened work weeks or work days. I can claim unemployment for my week off, and I will. It's really not a big deal. Jeremy has a couple days off and since we still pay day-care anyway, Jacob will be with Elaine for a couple of days giving me ALONE time! WOW!

I need to finish everything I have to have done at work before I leave this afternoon. I know, and I'm sitting here, blogging. I just need to do a brain dump before I jump in to this mess I've created for myself.

Actually, I'm not sure what will be more difficult, cleaning off my desk, completing my long list of projects at home for the week, or giving up my stinky, dirty, bad habit...again. I'll just procrastinate a while longer - maybe I'll find the answer.

I probably won't be out here next week but, I'll think of you while I'm cleaning my oven, going 2 days without water while my upstairs bathroom gets new plumbing, finishing the decor in Jacob's room, organizing my office/crap room, raking my yard - I sure hope it's warm, and organizing photos. I'm also hoping that if I keep busy enough, I won't have time to focus on 'quitting'.

Yes, if you haven't figured it out, I am a smoker. Now wait a minute, relax - I don't smoke in the house or in our cars and typically not until Jacob is asleep and I'm not like a pack a day kind of smoker. I'm maybe a 5 cigarette a day smoker. I've quit before. I quit for a whole year - and went back. What a dummy! It's time to quit again. It's the biggest waste of money - it really is! And I don't want to do it any more. It's just yucky and dirty and gross and stinky and yucky.

Wish me...I don't know what. Strength, determination, luck...something! I'll keep you posted on my progress! (no pun intended)