I have been so busy!

I have been so busy lately, I don't know whether to scratch my watch or wind my butt!

Essentially, I am working 2 jobs. My regular job and the new job that I didn't get from the interview awhile ago as there isn't anyone to do it. No, there wasn't a pay increase either. Though it is supposed to just be temporary, we'll see. It hasn't been an easy couple of weeks but, don't get me wrong. I do enjoy the chaos a little bit. Makes the time go by faster.

I know I haven't been myself lately. Since the miscarriage post, I've been doing a little searching within. I did find that I had some things left to deal with. Some things I never addressed to myself. Some things that I have allowed to consume me. Things that I don't like about me. A lot of anger. I'm not happy with some of the choices I have made for myself and my family. I want it to be different, I want it to be better. I want to spend more quality time with my husband and my child. I have some other relationships that I would like to improve and I've just been sorting through it.

Jeremy's friend Dave came for dinner last night. They went to high school together but, I hadn't met him before. He was a very nice guy. Aw, shucks - he brought me flowers! I am very happy Jeremy is getting in touch with his old friends. I know he feels he has so little time at home with us, so when he does have free time, he wants to be with us and as much as I do appreciate the thought, he needs time to be Jeremy, not husband, father, and manager. I hope getting back in touch with these guys helps him get that time.

The tree guys showed up today! Yeah, it's Thursday, not Tuesday. They started in the back. We'll see what they finished when I get home! Now that it's spring, I'm looking forward to getting our yard back, playing outside, grass, flowers and so many things.

Jeremy and I have the day off together tomorrow - unplanned! It doesn't happen often. I'm looking forward to some quality family time. Hopefully the weather cooperates. I heard snow on the news last night!