Responsibility? That's for grown ups...

I've been off of work almost all week and I sure am glad I didn't go up home. Time went by fast enough as it was!

Amber called last night. She is 99% thinned and having contractions. The Dr. told her yesterday, "it looks like we'll have a baby either tonight or tomorrow". I spoke to her this morning, and she did spend most of the night in the hospital. They sent her home about 9:30 AM for lack of progress. She was told to go back when her contractions were 3-5 minutes apart. Rob gets out of work at 4:00 and she's hoping she can wait until he gets there. Jacob and I are waiting...impatiently. Yes, she's going to call me when she goes back to the hospital. Yes, we're leaving when she calls. No, I'm not emotionally ready for this. Could I be?

Amber did give me a beautiful "in the event of my death letter" when we saw her. She wrote down things like how glad she was to have met us, and that Jacob has us. Also, some things she wanted to tell him. I couldn't help but cry. She's so happy with the choice she made in our family. I do want to say that I am so proud of my family and my friends for loving Jacob so much and all of the wonderful things you do for him and with him. I want you all to know how proud I am to have you. Thank you!

Jeremy and I went in and signed our wills yesterday. Having watched Amber go through this mess...again, shed a lot of light on some things we needed to accomplish. 2 years ago, I never gave thought to what would happen if I died. Sure, I designated beneficiaries on my 401K and life insurance. I never had to worry about care or support of anyone else. To sit in that little office and decide who gets what and when, who takes care of everything when I'm no longer here. And the most important worry, who's going to love my child - we, thankfully made that decision long ago - now it's easier for that person in the event of our death. Yeah, that's a lot to decide in a half hour. Our attorney did also make provisions in our will should we decide to adopt again, so we won't have to change it should Amber's daughter come home with us.

You know how when you bite your cheek, it swells, and every time you eat something, you keep biting that same spot? This whole thing with Jacob's hearing/speech is a lot like that. Now we know there is a problem, we're noticing so much more and remembering more from before. He does hear, it's more like...imagine yourself under water and someone is talking to you, you know they are talking but it's muffled and you can't quite understand them. To you, that's normal so you begin to associate those muffled sounds with objects and when you want that object, you repeat the muffled sound that you heard because that's all you have ever heard. It's kind of sad, huh? This is a pretty good article about ear tubes though and explains what will be happening here at Random thoughts in a month or so. We've never had an ear infection but this fluid was there at Jacob's 18 month check-up. Our Dr. doesn't think it's going to go away, nor does he know that 2 of Jacob's 4 siblings have had tubes.

The Dept. of Water and Sewer was here this AM to check out Lake Harper. Of course, "We're not responsible for anything from the shutoff to the house." they said. Oh, the water is coming in next to our main which is inside the house. So, the plumber comes on January 2 and his estimate, without looking is between $1500 and $2000. Hooray!

Lastly, when did freaking toilet seats get so dang expensive? Of course, we can't just lose one, we have to lose 2! One broke, and the other was such heavy particle board I was afraid Jacob would lose a finger plus, we all know what happens when particle board gets wet...ick!

If you haven't noticed, for us, when it rains - yeah, it pours and it seems like it's always raining. We hope to see you back again soon...bring your umbrella!