I love fall, Thanksgiving and pumpkin pie, I love the spirit of Christmas...I HATE the time leading up to it.
I feel like everything is all in a jumble. My work slows down, Jeremy's work picks up. I start planning holiday meals and gifts and shopping and wrapping. It seems like there is never enough time to do everything I want to do.
Me, being the genius that I am, thought it'd be nice to do something different for Jacob's birthday this year and planned a little weekend away right smack in the middle of the holiday madness. I'm not sure if this was an intelligent choice or the biggest flop I've ever done, I guess we'll see.
I'm feeling a bit of holiday blues already this year. Jacob is getting older and the magic of Christmas is wearing off. We have some work to do as parents to curb this spoiled-ness we've created. It seems the world around us is more cold and distant this year. Maybe I'm just not into it.
In some ways, I'm a little downed by my, not really expectations of people but, people that should behave better...or maybe just behave. I'm so downed by people who are portraying themselves as people they truly aren't. I'm tired of people trying to live up to other's expectations and not being true to their hearts. I'm tired of people glossing over or avoiding their own problems yet quickly pointing out someone else's. I'm tired of people avoiding situations because they can't choose right from wrong and would rather just not upset anyone. I'm tired of falseness. I'm tired of fake. I'm tired of pasted on smiles. And I'm tired of lies. Let's face it, the holidays really do bring out the worst in people.
I always hoped that holidays meant spending time with family, and I think this year, I've finally taken it to heart - family isn't always the group of people you were born into, not always related by blood, family is often the people you choose to spend your time with. You'd think being the parent of an adopted child, I would have learned this a long time ago. It saddens me to have such a large family and we're not close at the holidays - or at all. It just hits me hardest at this time of year. That said, We are doing something different for Thanksgiving this year. I'm still cooking for us but, we're having dinner with family. A family that is very close to my heart. A family that I took a little time away from and learned that I love them dearly and I need to get back to them. They're not my blood family and it doesn't matter.
I hoping this little trip, this little Thanksgiving renews some love, some warmth in my heart. There is a lot missing and I want this to be my FAVORITE season again.
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
I'm giving up on this 30 Truths thing...
These are just not fun anymore...they are quite repetitive and well, this stuff doesn't matter to me. I also, don't think my views matter to anyone but me.
A friend of mine asked me about incense sticks recently, if I thought one brand was better than another. My answer was simply - "I use X brand. I have never tried B or C brand. But, try B or C brand if you like them, use them."
I do what I need to do for me for my life, what is best for me and for my family. You do what is best for you and for your family. Just because we may not do the same things, it doesn't mean either of us are wrong, we're just not the same. And that's ok.
Just think a minute, where would this world be, if we spent a lot less time judging or criticizing someone else for not being like us.
Here are the short and sweet answers to the rest of the questions.
Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on. - Look how great I am...
Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on. - Aw, Look how great I think I am and no one cares.
Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) - I'm not a music person.
Day 14 - A hero that has let you down. (letter) - I don't have heroes.
Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. - Things are just that -- things. And someone - it'd be hard to live without my husband or my kid but, I could do it. It may not be pretty. I'd be a mess but, I could do it.
Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without. -- Repeat of Day 15
Day 17 - A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. -- I haven't written a book report since high school and I don't intend to at 40.
Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage. -- It's all about love and who you choose to work hard with to make it work for the rest of your life. Sexual orientation is not my business.
Day 19 - What do you think of religion?
I believe in God, the father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.
He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary.
He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried.
He descended into hell.
On the third day he rose again.
He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the Holy Catholic Church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting. Amen.
Or what do you think of politics? -- I don't discuss politics unless I am well informed.
Day 20 - Your views on drugs and alcohol. -- I don't use drugs. I drink in moderation.
Day 21 -Your best friend is in a car accident and you were in a fight an hour before. What do you do? -- Pick up the phone and call her!Day 22 - Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. -- Sorry, that one has been expunged from my record. It's not public information and I won't make such.
Day 23 - Something you wish you had done in your life. -- I'm only 40 - it's not over yet.
Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Title and letter). -- I don't do mix tapes for anyone.
Day 25 - The reason you believe you’re still alive today. -- Because my work here is not finished.
Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? -- Yes. When I was a teenager, and that was one thing that I could control.
Day 27 - What’s the best thing going for you right now? -- Too much to count though I do count my blessings daily!
Day 28 - What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? -- CRY. Cry, and cry some more.
Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. -- To be better than I was yesterday.
Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself everything you love about yourself. -- Nope, no more patting me on the back. I'm a good person, I live a good life, no need to go on about it...again.
A friend of mine asked me about incense sticks recently, if I thought one brand was better than another. My answer was simply - "I use X brand. I have never tried B or C brand. But, try B or C brand if you like them, use them."
I do what I need to do for me for my life, what is best for me and for my family. You do what is best for you and for your family. Just because we may not do the same things, it doesn't mean either of us are wrong, we're just not the same. And that's ok.
Just think a minute, where would this world be, if we spent a lot less time judging or criticizing someone else for not being like us.
Here are the short and sweet answers to the rest of the questions.
Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on. - Look how great I am...
Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on. - Aw, Look how great I think I am and no one cares.
Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) - I'm not a music person.
Day 14 - A hero that has let you down. (letter) - I don't have heroes.
Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. - Things are just that -- things. And someone - it'd be hard to live without my husband or my kid but, I could do it. It may not be pretty. I'd be a mess but, I could do it.
Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without. -- Repeat of Day 15
Day 17 - A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. -- I haven't written a book report since high school and I don't intend to at 40.
Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage. -- It's all about love and who you choose to work hard with to make it work for the rest of your life. Sexual orientation is not my business.
Day 19 - What do you think of religion?
I believe in God, the father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.
He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary.
He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried.
He descended into hell.
On the third day he rose again.
He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the Holy Catholic Church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting. Amen.
Or what do you think of politics? -- I don't discuss politics unless I am well informed.
Day 20 - Your views on drugs and alcohol. -- I don't use drugs. I drink in moderation.
Day 21 -Your best friend is in a car accident and you were in a fight an hour before. What do you do? -- Pick up the phone and call her!Day 22 - Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. -- Sorry, that one has been expunged from my record. It's not public information and I won't make such.
Day 23 - Something you wish you had done in your life. -- I'm only 40 - it's not over yet.
Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Title and letter). -- I don't do mix tapes for anyone.
Day 25 - The reason you believe you’re still alive today. -- Because my work here is not finished.
Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? -- Yes. When I was a teenager, and that was one thing that I could control.
Day 27 - What’s the best thing going for you right now? -- Too much to count though I do count my blessings daily!
Day 28 - What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? -- CRY. Cry, and cry some more.
Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. -- To be better than I was yesterday.
Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself everything you love about yourself. -- Nope, no more patting me on the back. I'm a good person, I live a good life, no need to go on about it...again.
Monday, November 11, 2013
Veteran's Day 2013
A Veteran's Day Tribute
These brave ones raised a hand;
No hesitation held them back;
They were proud to take a stand.
They gave up normal life;
To serve their country and their God,
They plowed into the strife.
On strange and foreign shores;
Some lost new friends; some lost their lives
In long and brutal wars.
To support the ones who fought;
Their country had requirements for
The essential skills they brought.
The noble and the brave,
The ones still with us here today,
And those who rest in a grave.
They’re a cut above the rest;
Let’s give the honor that is due
To our country’s very best.
Thank you,
J. Alan Coleman, USMC
Bill Harper, US Air Force
Bill Harper, US Air Force
Don Harper, US Army
My nephew, Jaz Livingstone - still in boot camp, Amanda Coleman, Cyle Slater, Chad Atkinson, John Sams, Floyd Peplinski, Brian Smith, John Bedingham, and Tom Truesdell, Tina Needham, Leah TerAvest and many, many more.
Thank you to all Soldiers for your service and dedication to our country.
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