I suppose after what I said yesterday you won't be surprised to know that I'm also into Numerology - Numerology is any study of the purported mystical relationship between a count or measurement and life.
I am a Master Life Path 11 which is also explained as a heightened 2. You can figure out your life path here.
Individuals with the Life Path number 11 are very intuitive, in fact it is the most intuitive of all numbers. They are sensitive and have a great understanding of others, and can sense a great deal about what is going on behind the scenes. For example, they will pick up on people's relationships and health without being told anything. They are here to use their gifts of intuition, and sensitivity to help others.
Life path of 11 has the qualities of the number two magnified. If you have this number you are spiritually aware, a visionary, inspiring, charismatic, inventive, a dreamer, idealistic, and a deep thinker, and you rely on faith rather than logic to deal with the life and all it has to offer.
The challenge for Elevens is to not be overwhelmed by their gifts. Fears and phobias would be the downside of this number. They may also seem at times indecisive, impractical, nervous, and moody.
The number 11 life path is concerned with spiritual illumination. Often a number 11 will have an instinctive understanding of metaphysical matters. Because Elevens are also twos, , they have the strength to finish what they start. 11 is also a good number for forming partnerships … you work and play well with others. You are likely to marry young and be committed and faithful for your entire life.
Below are some key points you might want to take into consideration to help you on your path …
An 11 may appear to lead a life of extremes. It is really a search for balance in all areas of life. 11s are avant-garde and visionary individuals who make great students, psychics, mystics, healers, teachers, writers, musicians and artists.
You probably like habit and routine, it gives you a foundation from which you can explore. You might not be a leader, but you are a visionary and a very talented idea person. Your ability to quickly and accurately analyze a situation is a real strength in the business world. You are a perfectionist, but you usually measure up.
An unhappy 11 will find themselves always dreaming of big schemes, but never taking practical action to pursue those goals. This means the 11 is stuck in the "visionary" stage of enlightenment, and probably needs to address fear issues.
An 11/2 can be your own worst enemy. You're driven to perfection, but sometimes that just means you're on a carousel that won't stop. Learn to call it a day and don't get caught in self-blame.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Coming Clean
I believe in God,
I was taught that. I can recite that. It brings me comfort and warmth. I believe it in my heart of hearts. I can give you the Lord's Prayer too, if you'd like but, you'll think what you want and I'll know what I know. I need to discuss something...I'm really tired of being afraid. I'm really tired of judgement and perception, opinion and holding back so, at the risk of losing everything, I'm coming clean.
I believe in God. I believe in miracles. I believe that God puts people here on Earth to do his work. I believe in Angels. I believe in God's Kingdom. And I believe that God speaks to me in a voice I can hear. I also believe he speaks to you. I believe you can hear him just like I do, if you want to listen.
I've been working a lot these last few years on listening. You know that little voice that says, "Go back for your cup of coffee." and you ignore it, thinking it's just coffee so you don't go back. Then a few miles down the road and the guy driving behind you is talking on his phone, doesn't see you slowing to turn left and he hits you from behind. If you would have went back for coffee...you would't have been there for him to hit. It's those type things I'm learning to listen to.
I hear voices. I have for a long time. Sometimes with those voices, I'd smell something - like cologne or one super special visitor I have - he smells like gun oil and he's my favorite. But these voices, they tell me things when I'm with people or they explain things to me. Sometimes they bring me a deep understanding or a knowing. Say we're together and we're talking about your daughter who is getting married and you're very nervous/anxious about this guy she's chosen, well the more we're talking and I'm listening to you but, this voice says to me "He loves her! He loves her with all of his heart and his soul. He would never hurt her. He will cherish her all of his days!" Not only do you hear that but, you can feel this all encompassing warmth surround you like a hug from your loving father and you almost start to cry. How do you know this? You've never met them. Those things happen to me all the time. Sometimes these voices speak out loud to me. You may not hear them but, they still make me turn and look to find no one there. They're that real.
I asked this voice one time, "How much time do I have with my mom?"
The voice responded, "83".
I asked the voice, "83? 83 what? 83 days? 83 months? August 3rd? 83 what?".
Again the voice responded "83".
I knew not to ask the voice again for it had changed tone and like a child with their father, I knew my line of questioning was not going to be tolerated any longer. I'm waiting to see what he meant by "83"
I have a hard time in large groups of people - like concerts, crowded restaurants, oddly - church. I have a hard time with all of the noise. For me, it's 200 people trying to talk to me all at once and I can't sort out all of the voices. I don't know who's trying to talk to whom. The only thing I leave with is a splitting headache!I'm what is called a sensitive. I absorb the mood. If you're sad, I'll be sad. If you're elated, I'll be elated. If you're bitter and crabby, I will be too. I have to be very careful not to absorb and it's very hard. So I choose to keep my circle a little small. I've had a very tough time finding a church that is lifting for me. We have been with our church for some time and I recently realized that when leaving church on Sunday morning, I'd feel totally drained. It's because I was taking in all of everyone else's burdens. I need to find a new church family. I need to start experimenting with that very soon.
I hear voices. I talk to spirits but, right now I'm more at peace than I've ever been in my entire life. Call it conscience. Call me crazy. Call me a fruitcake. Call me a nutjob. Chances are - if you feel I have secluded myself from you, it's because I already knew you couldn't accept this from me and you'd rather call me names than to understand me. I'm sorry you feel that way. I came clean and how you deal with the rest, is up to you.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Quotes
I love quotes.
I don't normally use them in conversation (do I?) but, I like to share them, I find inspiration in them, they help to explain how I feel or sometimes they have the words I need when I need them. I wanted to share some of my favorites.
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
I don't normally use them in conversation (do I?) but, I like to share them, I find inspiration in them, they help to explain how I feel or sometimes they have the words I need when I need them. I wanted to share some of my favorites.
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
"Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." — Oscar Wilde
“You get a little moody sometimes but I think that's because you like to read. People that like to read are always a little fucked up.” ― Pat Conroy, The Prince of Tides
"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything." — Mark Twain
"It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open one's mouth and remove all doubt." — Abraham Lincoln
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one." — C.S. Lewis
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe
“Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears." — John Lennon
"There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way." ~C.S. Lewis,
"The things that make me different are the things that make me." — A.A. Milne
"He that is good for making excuses is seldom good for anything else." — Benjamin Franklin
"Never make excuses. Your friends don't need them and your foes won't believe them." — John Wooden
"The person who really wants to do something finds a way; the other person finds an excuse. " ~Author Unknown
"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." ~Bob Moawad
"God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me." ~Author unknown
"The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra." ~Jimmy Johnson
"Promise only what you can deliver. Then deliver more than you promise." ~Author Unknown
"The best angle from which to approach any problem is the try-angle." ~Author Unknown
“It is what you read when you don't have to that determines what you will be when you can't help it.” Oscar Wilde
"When you hold a grudge, you want someone else’s sorrow to reflect your level of hurt but the two rarely meet.” ― Steve Maraboli
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” ― Dr. Seuss
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss
“A room without books is like a body without a soul.” ― Marcus Tullius Cicero
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ― Mark Twain
“A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how strong it is until it's in hot water.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt,
“You get a little moody sometimes but I think that's because you like to read. People that like to read are always a little fucked up.” ― Pat Conroy, The Prince of Tides
"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything." — Mark Twain
"It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open one's mouth and remove all doubt." — Abraham Lincoln
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one." — C.S. Lewis
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe
“Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears." — John Lennon
"There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way." ~C.S. Lewis,
"The things that make me different are the things that make me." — A.A. Milne
"He that is good for making excuses is seldom good for anything else." — Benjamin Franklin
"Never make excuses. Your friends don't need them and your foes won't believe them." — John Wooden
"The person who really wants to do something finds a way; the other person finds an excuse. " ~Author Unknown
"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." ~Bob Moawad
"God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me." ~Author unknown
"The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra." ~Jimmy Johnson
"Promise only what you can deliver. Then deliver more than you promise." ~Author Unknown
"The best angle from which to approach any problem is the try-angle." ~Author Unknown
“It is what you read when you don't have to that determines what you will be when you can't help it.” Oscar Wilde
"When you hold a grudge, you want someone else’s sorrow to reflect your level of hurt but the two rarely meet.” ― Steve Maraboli
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” ― Dr. Seuss
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss
“A room without books is like a body without a soul.” ― Marcus Tullius Cicero
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ― Mark Twain
“A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how strong it is until it's in hot water.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt,
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Time
Time is such a strange concept. I was just thinking about today for example. Today is my 15 year anniversary of employment. I was thinking 'Wow! 15 years' --> 'I was completely vested in my company's pension plan when I was only 33' --> '33 that was 5 years ago so much has happened here as a company in 5 years' --> 'all of the issues that have cropped up and resolved in that spans of time.' --> 'Time. Wow. It's quite a concept. I should blog about time.'
I think back to the times in life where I had the opportunity to grow or to change and at that time this 'thing' was so major, such a large part of my life but, now to look back on that time or that growth and in this light, it really wasn't much of a big of a deal...if I remember it at all!
I look at my Jacob, about to turn 6. The time before his birthday is always a giant reflection for me. I remember like it was yesterday, the excitement of getting our child, all of the preparations we were absorbed in, and our close relationship with our lawyer (that doesn't quite fit into a birthplan, does it?). Trying to have everything finished in time. We spent part of Thanksgiving with his biological family that year...and I think of what time has done to that relationship. I think about Jaocb as a little tiny baby and how much he's grown and changed since then. I remember reading book after book after book to him, and now he's reading to me.
I think about my parents. My dad, 12 years gone now and my mom stuck in a time long since gone. My sisters, my brother - I won't share their ages with you but, I do think ahead to the time when I'll be an orphan and/or an only child. I want to enjoy the time I have with my family (I'm not saying that I don't now). I'm saying, no matter the family, isn't there always room for improvement?
We've celebrated quite a few 'years', this year. 40, 38, 15, 10, 9, 6, 5, and only one (Jeremy, Me, a work milestone, years together, years married, Jacob's birthday, Gotcha Day, having Kelsey, and Kelsey's first birthday). The time between our years seems to get shorter and shorter with more, and less 'firsts'. It's hard to keep track of the things that are most important when there are so many things that I don't want to lose.
This is the beginning of a new day.
God has given me this day to use as I will.
I can waste it or use it for good.
What I do today is important, because
I am exchanging a day of my life for it.
When tomorrow comes,
this day will be gone forever,
leaving in its place something
that I have traded for it.
I want it to be gain, not loss;
good not evil; success not failure;
in order that I shall not regret
the price I paid for it. ~Author Unknown
I think back to the times in life where I had the opportunity to grow or to change and at that time this 'thing' was so major, such a large part of my life but, now to look back on that time or that growth and in this light, it really wasn't much of a big of a deal...if I remember it at all!
I look at my Jacob, about to turn 6. The time before his birthday is always a giant reflection for me. I remember like it was yesterday, the excitement of getting our child, all of the preparations we were absorbed in, and our close relationship with our lawyer (that doesn't quite fit into a birthplan, does it?). Trying to have everything finished in time. We spent part of Thanksgiving with his biological family that year...and I think of what time has done to that relationship. I think about Jaocb as a little tiny baby and how much he's grown and changed since then. I remember reading book after book after book to him, and now he's reading to me.
I think about my parents. My dad, 12 years gone now and my mom stuck in a time long since gone. My sisters, my brother - I won't share their ages with you but, I do think ahead to the time when I'll be an orphan and/or an only child. I want to enjoy the time I have with my family (I'm not saying that I don't now). I'm saying, no matter the family, isn't there always room for improvement?
We've celebrated quite a few 'years', this year. 40, 38, 15, 10, 9, 6, 5, and only one (Jeremy, Me, a work milestone, years together, years married, Jacob's birthday, Gotcha Day, having Kelsey, and Kelsey's first birthday). The time between our years seems to get shorter and shorter with more, and less 'firsts'. It's hard to keep track of the things that are most important when there are so many things that I don't want to lose.
This is the beginning of a new day.
God has given me this day to use as I will.
I can waste it or use it for good.
What I do today is important, because
I am exchanging a day of my life for it.
When tomorrow comes,
this day will be gone forever,
leaving in its place something
that I have traded for it.
I want it to be gain, not loss;
good not evil; success not failure;
in order that I shall not regret
the price I paid for it. ~Author Unknown
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
$36.82
I've raved about the prices at Aldi I don't know how many times and I'm sorry but, I can't help it. I have to rave again.
I ran in tonight only to pick up my Thanksgiving turkey but, it's never that simple. I always need more.
I picked up:
a little over 19 lb Butterball brand turkey
1 gallon of milk
4 boxes of turkey stuffing (because I haven't found a recipe for stuffing yet that I like)
2 bags of frozen green beans
1 large bag of round tortilla chips
1 loaf of whole grain white bread
1 large can of French fried onions
1 jar of peanut butter (16 oz)
1- 12 oz block of Colby cheese
All or the amazing price of $36.82!
I ran in tonight only to pick up my Thanksgiving turkey but, it's never that simple. I always need more.
I picked up:
a little over 19 lb Butterball brand turkey
1 gallon of milk
4 boxes of turkey stuffing (because I haven't found a recipe for stuffing yet that I like)
2 bags of frozen green beans
1 large bag of round tortilla chips
1 loaf of whole grain white bread
1 large can of French fried onions
1 jar of peanut butter (16 oz)
1- 12 oz block of Colby cheese
All or the amazing price of $36.82!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Perfect...?
My sister sent this to me today. It rings true for me...most days... and it is certainly something that I need to remember everyday. I thought I'd share it here because as hectic and crazy as life does get we all can use a reminder now and then to appreciate what we do have rather than looking at what everyone else has and thinking we need that too.
“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and
the two of you will never be perfect.
But if he can make you laugh at least
once, causes you to think twice, and if
he admits to being human and making
mistakes, hold onto him and give him
the most you can. He isn’t going to
quote poetry, he’s not thinking about
you every moment, but he will give you
a part of him that he knows you
could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t
change him, and don’t expect for more than
he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when
he makes you happy, yell when he
makes you mad, and miss him when
he’s not there. Love hard when there is
love to be had. Because perfect guys
don’t exist, but there’s always one guy
that is perfect for you.” ― Bob Marley
Monday, November 14, 2011
Parent/Teacher Conferences
We had conferences last week. I brought home Jacob's very first report card!
Jacob got an excellent report. He's doing VERY well in school. He knows all of his letters uppercase and lowercase. He gets a little stuck on the sounders - those vowels are tricky! He's counting to 100. And his coloring is within the lines. All the things a mom could ask for!
Jacob gets along very well with all of his classmates. He's a very good helper. He listens and follows directions but, sometimes has a tough time coming in from recess.
Tonight, after supper, he read a book to me. My little kindergartener can read! I was such a proud mom.
Sometimes, I think all of the trials he puts me through are simply the result of 7 hours in school where he has to be so good for so long. I guess, if he's going to be bullheaded and belligerant, I'd rather he be that way at home!
Especially when he can read to me! :)
Jacob got an excellent report. He's doing VERY well in school. He knows all of his letters uppercase and lowercase. He gets a little stuck on the sounders - those vowels are tricky! He's counting to 100. And his coloring is within the lines. All the things a mom could ask for!
Jacob gets along very well with all of his classmates. He's a very good helper. He listens and follows directions but, sometimes has a tough time coming in from recess.
Tonight, after supper, he read a book to me. My little kindergartener can read! I was such a proud mom.
Sometimes, I think all of the trials he puts me through are simply the result of 7 hours in school where he has to be so good for so long. I guess, if he's going to be bullheaded and belligerant, I'd rather he be that way at home!
Especially when he can read to me! :)
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